I have been trying my best to keep myself busy with homeschooling and various hobbies. Trying to keep my mind off of the wait. But my mind always drifts back to adoption. I wonder if maybe our profiles are not good enough. Maybe because we already have 4 biological children birth mother's frown upon us. Perhaps birth mothers don't like the idea that we homeschool? These thoughts haunt me. As you can tell, the discouragement has set in a bit. I know that years from now, after we have completed the whole adoption process and have our little one home, we will look back and know that the wait was worth it. It is just hard being in the middle of it all.
(This picture has nothing to do with the blog post. I just thought it was cute!)
oh, i feel your heart here. i freshly remember this longing to just know our child. i know that you know His timing will be perfect, but it doesn't always take away that aching in a mama's heart.
ReplyDeletei mentioned this story in a post recently, but thought maybe i could share with you? my heart was feeling like you describe here & our social worker was taking forever! i was getting so frustrating with how slow it was going on his end. after traveling to africa and finding our son, i later found out that he arrived at the orphanage the VERY same day that i did. we didn't meet until 2 days late, but he came that very day!!! praise God for PERFECT timing.
hope this could be of some encouragement to you. blessings!